Cory's family and mine got together briefly shortly after my last post. It went well. We met at a little dessert shop near our house and talked for a couple hours. I was distant most of the time for self-preservation reasons even though I was trying hard not to be for the sake of Scoot, Beezer and Cory. My parents and sisters enjoyed seeing them and I looked for a quick exit when I needed it.
That is pretty much all there is to say about it. I love and care for them, but they will be fine without me as involved as I have been in the past. Cory isn't old enough to understand anything and I don't have the emotional capacity to work at the relationship with Scoot and Beezer. Things are fine the way they are for now.
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So from what I am understanding that you are pulling away? That the visits are too hard? I can't relate because of the closed adoption era but I can only imagine how hard it might be to be in your shoes. I am sorry. I can relate. I have contact with my daughter through a social network and sometimes it kills me to see her post and not really feel like she cares on way or another for me.
Pulling away a little bit for now. Visits are hard, not unbearable but definitely hard. I haven't allowed myself the space to heal before now. It feels like a time when I can do that without negatively affecting too many people.
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